I am so vulnerable all the time now.
Someone just has to slightly hint about a memory with Liz and I become a fucking trainwreck inside.
I miss her so bad. She's the only person in the entire world I can rely on completely and I know she won't run away.
Every time I have a best friend I let my guard down and they either leave, pass away or we lose contact.
She left, but only kicking and screaming in protest. We both didn't want to leave each other and it's still killing me that there is 9 months until I get to see her again. Possibly.

I don't want to wait. I'm physically and psychologically exhausted. It sounds horrible but it's like she's my medication, she makes the rest of the world okay. She makes me be able to deal with everyone else and their crappy attitudes because she doesn't care what people think. I know a few people don't like her but you know what? Suck my nonexistant dick because I would die for her.
she's probably the only person I would say that about too. I love all my other friends too but it's just not the same.

I know, and I can ay this with complete comfidence....

I didn't know friendship before I met her.

Sorry to be friendship elitist.